It was soul wrenching experienced to witness My mother's battling with her sickness . From full energy ball of sunshine to beddridden sunken ship. It was during my last quarter pregnancy when My mom repeatedly hospitalized and got worsen during mothers day. From Davao I was opt to travel to Mlang Cotabato to see her personally.
I saw my Mom with mixed emotions. As I'm trying to keep my self intact, cause I recently taking care of my baby. Sleepless nights, exhausted, mentally physically and emotionally drained. Felt my spirit roaming somewhere else.
The overwhelmed, anxiety and hyper vigilant got me into it. From Mlang I travelled Mama & Pa pa hoping that Mama will eventually recovered and extend her life. I became an instant care giver for My parents and also to my baby. I feel like I'm a failure to be a good provider since I wasn't give them comfortable life and it me hard until this time.
God know's how much I love you Mama. I may not that expressive. I truly wish that your in a good hands right now. I will for ever cherished the good memories of you mama. You may not be the typical mama or the ideal one but I know deep in your hearts and bones the you deeply love me and my brother.
Sorry Mama for all the heart aches I caused you. for the misunderstanding and some sort of longingness to have a motherly figure. Thank you for giving life. For all the lessons and sacrifices.
To be continue, for Papa . . .

