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Saturday, January 30, 2021

My 3 am thoughts

 




During these long nights wrapped in anxiety, I find myself drawn into prayer—into a quiet conversation between my heart and something far greater than myself. In those moments of stillness, as I listen to the gentle whisper of my inner voice, I begin to feel safe… held… secure.

Processing life, for me, is an act of surrender and understanding. Life unfolds as it is meant to, and when we attempt to twist its nature to fit our fears or expectations, we risk disturbing the fragile peace within us. There are battles we fight in silence—unseen wars that take place in the dimly lit corners of our personal sanctuaries. Yet it is often there, in that quiet darkness, where we discover the faint glow of our own light.

I have learned that I carry my life at my own rhythm—unrushed, intentional, and deeply personal. To move at my own pace, to savor moments, to mend the broken spaces with my own hands—these are not signs of weakness. They do not require me to lower my standards, nor to compromise the respect I owe myself.

There are forces in life beyond our control, beyond even our understanding. To overanalyze every storm is to forget that we are human—creatures guided sometimes by logic, sometimes by emotion, and often by the mysterious intersection of both.

And so, I allow myself to breathe.
To gather the scattered fragments of who I am.
To feel everything—grief, hope, fear, peace—without apology.

I am learning that change is rarely a thunderclap moment where everything transforms overnight. More often, it is a quiet season—a sacred stretch of time where we learn, stumble, rise, adjust, and grow.

I hold deep admiration for those who weather their own hurricanes in silence—those who carry storms within their chests yet still sit calmly with a warm cup of coffee, composed and steady. They rarely speak of their struggles, yet they nurture peace within themselves and somehow still find strength to uplift others.

And above all, I have come to understand this truth:
When God resides within your heart and soul, no mountain is too vast, no path too broken to cross.

The road may not be gentle. The journey may not be easy. But one day, you will stand amazed at who you have become—because God has been shaping you all along, placing moments, people, and lessons exactly where they need to be. Not to change you into someone else—but to help you fully become you, through His grace.

To follow His path is to slowly, bravely release your potential. To live with contentment—not because you have settled for less, but because you have chosen to focus on who He calls you to be.

For everything here on earth is temporary. The shine of superficial things will one day fade like dust under sunlight.

So keep moving forward.
Keep shining.

Let your light travel beyond distances you may never see—
Touching hearts in places you may never know—
And echoing into eternity, where true meaning lives.


Friday, January 15, 2021

Grateful Heart, Quiet Mind

 

Lord, I come before You with a heart overflowing with gratitude. Thank You for the gentle reminders of Your unfailing love, for the quiet assurance that even when I wander, Your presence never truly leaves me. Thank You for allowing me to feel You again—to sense Your nearness in moments when my soul longed for refuge.

I cannot imagine a life without You, for You are the breath within my lungs and the anchor of my spirit. Forgive me, Lord, for the times I allowed busyness to drown out Your voice. Forgive me for being consumed by the fleeting pleasures of this world, by superficial distractions that momentarily blinded me from what truly matters. Forgive me for the prayers I left unsaid, for the moments I sank into the depths of weariness and forgot to reach for You.

Thank You for the strength You continue to pour into my life—strength I often do not realize I possess until I am called to stand. Thank You for the unexpected blessings that arrive like quiet miracles, reminding me that You are always working beyond what my eyes can see. Thank You for Your patience with me, for never abandoning me even when I falter, even when I lose my way.

I know I am imperfect. I know there are still parts of me that need healing, lessons I have yet to understand, and truths I have yet to face. Yet still, You clothe me in wisdom, shield me with Your protection, and guide me with a love that never grows weary.

Thank You, Lord, for the peace that settles my restless mind, for the comfort that wraps around me like a warm embrace, for the stillness that allows my soul to finally rest. Thank You for the privilege of being a vessel of kindness—to help, to serve, and to be a blessing to others, especially to my family whom I hold so dear.

Lord, I am in the sacred process of healing. And in this journey, I am learning not only to endure—but to find quiet joy in becoming whole again.