My Quest on knowing Myself

Knowing yourself helps on building your future, not necessarily the perfect one but in state of happiness with contentment.

 I spend most of my time reflecting myself, what are my strengths and weakness, my desire, dreams and who really am I. As time goes by I observed that I’m a bit loner, loves quite and serene place where my thoughts can flow with at ease. I highly adored someone who has innate talent when it comes to Art. It was like screaming an appreciation when I saw something immensely reflects one’s creativity.

Knowing oneself is a journey without a definite destination, just the mere ideal of what you really want to be in your future self. It can be frustrating at times and it can be a rewarding especially when you discover something about yourself that you’re not totally believed you are capable of doing.

I’m currently 27 yrs old and I see myself as stagnant water in muddy areas of my life. Full of uncertainties, full of rebel thoughts and hopeless tendencies.  I keep on thinking If I could fast forward time and circumstances cause I’m a TIRED on dwelling into something I’m not comfortable of doing. Thinking if I could escape my current reality.

My struggles on urge me to read and luckily one of mom lend me a book entitled “SPIRIT -CONTROLLED TEMPERAMENTS”. Ever since I’m undeniably interested about temperaments, personality,Anything that has something to do with person’s behavior.

Here are some things that took me into the deeper sight of knowing oneself.

Temperaments – is the combination of inborn traits that subconsciously affects our behaviour. It is a person’s temperament that makes that person extroverts or introverts. Similarly it is temperaments that makes some people art or music enthusiast while others sports minded.

Character- the real you. the hidden person of the heart. It is the result by natural temperament modified by childhood training, educations, and basic attitudes beliefs, principles and motivations. “The Soul” of the person made up of mind emotions and will.

Personality-outward expression of oneself, which may or may not be the same as a person’s character, depending on how genuine that person is. Often a pleasant façade for unpleasant or weak character. Basis of what they think they should be as a person rather than what they really are. Mental and spiritual Chaos. It is caused by following human formula for acceptable conduct.

Meet the four basic Temperaments.

Sanguine, Choleric, Melancholic and Phlegmatic. (No person is a single temperament and it should be for self analyzing only.)

Upon reading and analyzing my ways and behavior I realized that I am fall into the  blend of Melancholy and Phlegmatic which is the (Melphleg).

Melancholy –analytical, self sacrificing, gifted, perfectionist type, with a very sensitive emotional nature (Highly agree). No one gets more enjoyment from fines arts than a melancholy (yes art really my tickle my soul and wander into illusions ).prone to be an introvert, faithful friend but does not make friends easily(True , I’m a bit picky on my choosing my friend). Not push himself forward to meet people but lets people come.

Phlegmatic-Kindhearted and sympathetic but seldom conveys his true feelings.feels much more emotion than appears on the surface and has a good capacity to appreciate the fine arts and the  finer things of life.Often annoyed and confronted. They take delight of throwing ice in bubbling plans and ambition of a choleric . But beneath the cool,reticent, almost timid is a very capable combination of abilities. They tend not to take leadership on their own, but can be a good leader when entust upon them Reluctant leader. They are natural peacemakers , they where accurate bookkeepers

I think this theory is almost similar to my innate being but I guess environment and experiences place an important factors also on how the way we think , response and adapt as an individual.