SILENT SCREAM !!!!!

             



              Thoughts filled with unwanted memoirs of what mouth is trying to hide.Moments where only you could hear every drops of your tears dripping into your own silence.Part of your life that you wish to throw in a garbage can or even permanently delete on  recycle bin. Something that seems like a corrupt file or even a malicious virus, trying to destroy  your synchronize system.It is the feeling where you want to reformat your own brain in order to restart and have way for more storage room of fresh and good memories.

                   Nowadays people are too busy on making money, too much attention for something brilliant into the eyes like some luxurious belongings that attracted materialistic desires .People are have so much time with their social medias neglecting some tiny details of our life. Most individual just stay tuned on what is visually  pleasant and something that can boost their egos.They allured into something most of the crowd patronized .What I'm trying to say is out of most brilliant happening nowadays there are some  issues that need to take a look deeper .Some things that may not often discuss like MENTAL HEALTH, SUICIDE attempts, BULLYING are silent scream among individual who trapped in the middle of pit that struggles to bounce back into the real world to live harmoniously.

                      I myself can attest that some individuals choose to keep their mouth shut in order to avoid humiliation and complicated scenarios that possible may come. Psychological abused  is  one of the most devastating torture a person can have. It's like living in hell , for those who suffered and in pain they tend to face it alone because they were afraid of judgments of people until they can't no  longer bare the pain and wish to finished his / her life. For those you have loved ones who are possible for this degrading issue you need to be sensitive for the emotions of others. They may not literally tell the whole story of their misery but at least try to read between lines. Notice their habits,  the way they look into your eyes , the way they hug you so tight ,the way their body language have  so much to say .Notice some red flags like suddenly change of moods, suddenly become so paranoid of specific things around them, it might save another life by just listening , by just giving them an assurance and comfort without any judgments .

                           Being a one of most vulnerable , I felt more emotions and I felt like I need to guard myself from others who have the tendency to destroy one's fragile heart.I knew that I'm so sensitive and my defense mechanism sometimes is to ignore things and often cold. Sometimes people misunderstood the way I behave , sometimes they tend to questioned my being and I would take every consequences .I have to  show them that I was firm to my decision and consistent for being a numb for "who cares" cover up.It feels less pain than showing them how brittle my heart can be for allowing my emotions seen by their naked eyes.For me this one really works for me as of this time. It keeps myself to take control of my emotions and tendency to become vulnerable and take for granted.

                          Silence doesn't really mean all is well, silence can also be an indication of decade turmoil of one's heart.Silence is not always at peace , it can also implicates  a vengeance that you might not know when it will be going to burst like monsters that will haunt every piece of you.