Life after My Mother died

 It was soul wrenching experienced to witness My mother's battling with her sickness. From full energy ball of sunshine to beddridden sunken ship. It was during my last quarter pregnancy when My mom repeatedly hospitalized and got worsen during mothers day . From Davao I was opt to travel to Mlang Cotabato to see her personally.

How travel to China ? What are the requirements?

 

It was year 2019 when our company decided to visit Beijing  and Shanghai CHINA. For those who are interested in planning to visit China here are the following requirements .

1.Letter of intent to Chinese Consulate general/ Sponsorship Letter. 

Find the Chinese Embassy in your local area and make a letter indicating the intention to  visit with specific date . If you are planning  for a tourist visit you must request for single entry tourist visas. If you are planning for company sponsored trip , kindly indicate the names of the employees as well as the family member. The letter shall clearly state that the company will shoulder the financial expenses  of the employees.

2. Individual Affidavit of Support for Employees that will financially supported by the company.

3. Affidavit of Support for each family members that will be supported by which family member.

Note: Each letter shall be signed by financial sponsor and must be done by a licensed Lawyer.

4. Photocopy of  Passport with signatures.

https://youtu.be/mIACzVMCDck here is the link of our video compilation trip to China

5.Bank Certificate of Financial Sponsor.

6.Bank Statement of Financial Sponsor.

Note: in our case we get Bank Certificate individually and also Bank statement.

7.Hard copy of Visa Application Form -Visas  may be claimed after 4 working days.

8.If only one person will apply for VISA  , kindly provide Authorization letter with IDs and signatures.

9.Each person shall provide copy of Hotel Booking 

9.Travel Itinerary

                                                                                           

                                                                                                    

My knee Injury Journey

 

This month of September has been a challenging for me, since my left knee got some issues in terms of some damage  tissues and ligaments due to my weak muscle and bad slipped recently..I  thought it was just a mere pain that I could handle but little by little it lead to inflammation that my mobilization and work got affected.

Due to some rare level of discomfort and pain every morning I decided to consult a doctor , to check my left knee and see what medical procedure and precautions they will advise for me to walk again properly.I went to St. Alexus Rehabilitation and Orthopedic Center located in along Mc. Arthur Highway, Matina Davao City.

The first procedure that was advised to me is to have an X-ray of my left knee. After that I proceed to the Orthopedic  Department and together of an X-ray report.The Doctor said that diagnosis Fracture of Lateral Condyl slightly displaced. I was advised to have hinged braces to stabilized my knee and scotches to help my knee carry my body and walk easily.He advised me to take Docel Tablet to lessen pain.The Doctor told me that it was need an operation if I don't want to undergo operation I need to indulge myself for the Physical Therapy.I was a little bit shocked and puzzled at the same time.

Summary of Expenses ( Alexian Orthropedic Center)

X-ray left knee - Php 210.00

Doc. Consultation  Php 600.00

Docel Pain Killer Php 557.50  

Scrotches  Php795.00

Others meals & fare est. Php 300  

 Total 2,462.5   

Note I did not acquire the Hinged Braces  which cost  Php 5000,00 and Physical Therapy per session cost is Php 500.00/ session.

After 5 days the pain is still pounding my knee. Then I was advised to get a second opinion to other Doctor. I went to Davao Doc Hospital for scheduled appointment and the Doctor diagnosis  Pes Ansenmus Bursites  which is the inflamation of the bursa. Then my knee got injected by steriod which is Depo Medrol. I pain slowly subside and it made me relived though I still have the feeling of stiffness to my knee and instability .  I was instructed by the Dr. to undergo MRI & lab Test specifically FBS, Creatinine and Uric Acid for further diagnosis. 

Here are some glimps to my MR.

The MRI speaks for itself , Partial Tear of Anterior Cruciate Ligament /ACL,Partial Tear  Vastus Medialis ,Medial Patellar retinacular strain.Horizontal tear of posterior horns of medial and lateral menisci.Lateral Colateral  Ligaments Strain, Knee Joint infusion  & Subcutaneous Edema.

After the MRI & Lab Test result was given I went to Dr. Pile again for follow up consultation. He refer me to Dra. Carpio, a  Physiatrist for the Physical Therapy. I was advised to have 2 weeks of physical Therapy trice a week by the procedure of High intensity Laser.

 Summary of Expenses ( Davao Doc Hospital)

MRI   Left Knee only  Php 12, 743.00

Chest X-ray Php 521.00

FBS  -Php 257.00

Creatinine Php 354.00

Uric Acid Php 319.00

Steriod Injection (Depo Medrol) Procedure  with Philhealth 

Php 5,700  (Doc Fee 4,000, 1,600 Ultrasound, 100 admin fee)

Physical Therapy Procedure (Doc Fee  700 if No Health Card)

High Intensity Laser Package 2 weeks Php 5,484 

Glocusamin  Php 1,310 14 sachet good for 2 weeks

Total 27,388

others Taxi fare & meals est.

Currently I am under Physical Therapy A and on going pa ang pag heal. I'm praying hindi mauwi sa operation. 

EGOISM : Senses of Self

 

Every individual has its own self importance and it manifest thru our actions towards a certain situation or scenarios. Living  oneself requires a collection of decisions, judgement, and how we act without relying on external authority.

When we tend to dig deeper , look at into someone's motivation and desires at times if reflects their inner intentions. Motivations fuels the desire to achieve more, to take an effort and persevere .Our life reflects our choices and decisions which motivates our actions. Having messy thoughts immerse us into something disastrous actions that would lead to hurt others even if you have good intention.

As we face challenges and unpredictable bumps along the way we tend to lose balance and have difficulty to get back on tract.Too much self importance sometimes hinder growth , it lead to unending question of WHY.We as a human have a set of goals, believes and experiences that mold us to be a person we are right now.Environment plays big factor how your pieces form and synchronize to your own principles and beliefs. 

We simply adhere into our own understanding without considering others factors along the way.Too much self importance can lead to a rotten tomatoes.Some People doesn't aware that they have TOXIC EGO, it simply characterized by an arrogant aura and selfish impulses.To be able to have a clear headed mindset with humble soul , you may see the following.

1. ADOPT A BEGINNER's MINDSET -Remind yourself how much you don't know , it is " Impossible to learn that which one already knows" . Accepting that we didn't know anything and life offers a vast of things that we are not capable of figuring out.Put yourself in rooms where you're the least knowledgeable person. Observe and learn.

2.FOCUS ON THE EFFORT NOT THE OUTCOME-Exerting effort to do a certain things may satisfy our self it could give the sense of success and peace of mind. Doing your best is what matters, we must highlight the fact EFFORT is the key.External reward are just an icing on the cake.

3.CHOOSE PURPOSE OVER PASSION- Passion doesn't consistently pave your way while people with purpose think of it as passion combined with reason are more dedicated and have more control over their direction.

4.STOP TALKING & FACE YOUR WORK- We as an individuals fond on talking on social media getting validation and fake internet frontage and tend to avoid some uncertain and difficult work. 

5.HUMILITY IS THE ANTIDOTE OF PRIDE-Remind yourself to stay on the ground no matter how big accomplishment you have on your table.

6.FOCUS ON THE PRESENT MOMENT NOT THE STORY- Learn to value the present , stop on telling stories of your success. Stay low key.

7.MANAGE YOURSELF ,AND OTHERS- Being smart is not enough you should learn to manage small compartments of your life.

8.LEARN WHAT MATTERS TO YOU & LEARN TO SAY NO.-Know your priorities and have a tranquility to know what you are after.

9.FORGET CREDITS & RECOGNITION- When we are at the beginning part of our pursuits we need to make an effort to trade short term gratification for a longer payoff.Learn to some successful individuals absorb as much as you can. 

10. CONNECT WITH NATURE-It is where you realized how small you are in connection with everything else.

11.WHEN YOU FIND YOUR SELF IN A HOLE -STOP DIGGING- Our Ego screams and rattles when it is wounded.Don't make things worse. Don't dig yourself further. Make a plan.

12.CHOOSE LOVE OVER HATRED. Hate is like eroding acid that eats away the center of you life, choose love .

Hope you've got something :) 

My 3 am thoughts

 

During these nights of anxiety, I keep praying and listening to my inner voice and makes me feel I'm secure.  Processing things is my way of thinking that life is how the way it is and twisting things may affect your inner peace if you allow it. Sometimes we come across our quiet fight, wherein in the dim light corner of our sanctuary, we found our own light. 

I realized that I carry my life at my own pace, enjoying the moment and filling the gaps in my own hand doesn't mean I  need to lower my values and respect myself. I understand that we may encounter things beyond our control and set of mindsets, and thinking such into a deeper analogy is a pointless thing caused as an individual our decisions may vary based on logic or emotions. 

I'm allowing myself to breathe, to recover some pieces of myself, and feel everything at the same time. I'm trying not to set unrealistic standards, learning that change is rarely a single moment when everything suddenly shifts,  but rather a period in which we learn, adjust, and improve. 

I deeply respect those struggling with their own hurricane but manage to take a sip of coffee with poise and calm. They tend not to tell anyone, and be at peace, and have some energy to spare to take care of themselves while inspiring others. 

I realized that when God is in your heart and soul, no huge mountains can block your way to attain your goals and heart desires. Yeah, it may not be a smooth path to take but you will be amazing one day cause God putting things in his way to allow you to become YOU with his grace. To be willing to unleash your potential by following his journey and simply live your life here on earth with contentment not because you settle for less but keeping your eyes on FOCUS on the things that he wants you to be.

Everything here on earth is temporary, and dwelling on superficial things will fade its luster that is why keep ongoing. Let your shine be visible even to those far places and beyond. 

GRATITUDE SPOT :January 2021

 

I just want to thank you Lord for the reminder and assurance of your love. Thank you for allowing me to feel your presence again.I couldn't imagine my life with out you. Forgive me for being too busy, for being occupied to the of world pleasures and superficial things. Forgive me when I forgot to pray , for the times I felt at the bottom.

I'm grateful for the strength, for all the unexpected blessings,Thank you Lord for your patience with me, for not leaving me.I know I'm a sinner , a lot of things I need to work out , things that I may not aware of. Lord thank you for the wisdom and for your protection.

Lord thank you for the peace of mind , for the comfort and feel at ease .Thank you for the opportunity to help, and be a blessing to others , especially for my family. Lord I currently on the process of healing and I enjoying the process.

2021 year of Hope

 

The silence is over, and it made me relieved caused it is an answered prayer.Thank you Lord for your guidance , as I manage to exit gracefully and I took it as a lesson and a good memory as well.

Though I might start at the beginning again. This year 2021, I finally made up my mind to change some of my habits , to be more clear of what I really wanted to do. To be more healthy, life is short and I want to spend the rest of my life with positive outlook in life. I'm done being negative cause at times it ruin the beauty of life.

Life is fleeting and we need to invest our life into something worthwhile. Something that God will be glorify. Something that it leaves a mark when I 'm gone.

Here's are the list that I need to work on on my part.

1.Financial Stability - It comprise to settle all my debts and have an emergency fund .

2.Healthy Living -Eat more of fruits and veges and exercise.

3.Writing  - I need to be consistent to write a content .

4.Learn new things    - esp cooking , parenting (wow parenting haha !)

5.Bible - I need to finished reading the whole book before the year is end. I was planning to have a devotional content to inspire others.

   

Silence

  

Dec. 12/28/2020 Day 1: 

One morning of gloom & heavy heart, puzzled while walking on the misty street with my black umbrella .

I keep my feet from walking,wonder why I feel such pain, thoughts clouded my mind and gasping for air.

I'm a bit lost , lost of sense of time ,every thing was blurred and suddenly I decided to take a taxi cab.

My chest begin to race like harsh attempt to take my consciousness. I slowly drag my senses, forcing my soul to smile to trick my brain for a seconds.

So much of silence that I couldn't hear some jeep noise nearby, It was a vague figure of lines as I saw the window.

The taxi cab stopped and I tend to do my job as I ought to do

Clueless that we have an assessment that day, It was a one on one with my superior 

A part of me was quite nervous but I preferred to stay calm , listening while splashing my thoughts.

Admittedly I have a lot of room for improvements , I felt anxious yet relieve.

12/29/2020

I'm a bit distracted with that notion on my head, I went to bathroom , I cried  and  uttered prayer secretly .

I'm telling my self to be firm  to let God guide me . Enough to fight and face reality.

I keep myself indulge to things laid on my table, to validated my self with my current emotions.

Its okay not to be okay, to feel hurt ,to be naturally  feel the process  of human tendencies , to love, 

to hurt and heal.

12/30/2020

Calming my entity , listening to some Christian song as I organize my things.

I make my bed , and prepared clothes and bedding for laundry. I can't hide the murmuring thoughts on my head

I go to sleep again, let my disturb soul listen to some motivational advises and I went outside , I took a walked and bumped into a massage parlor.

I talked to an old friend, a church mate before , reconnecting the gap of no communications, She was so willing to absorb things and listen as I have to her .

12/31/2020

I'am literally a having a flue inside  , I'm a bit hesitant to go to Arrezo Place and celebrated New year.

Yeah, I'am alone this whole day, crunching on the bed while watching some creative individuals fighting to attain their dreams.

I called my housemate for I am not feeling well , I just feel that my body and mind need to rest.

I'am fine spending time on my own, I steamed some hotdogs and embutido before I took my medicine.

It was heavy I will admit but I keep on talking God, I decided to look for the path that we can talk but I was ignored . Like it was an attempt to tame an elusive lion on a den., I will be fine, God gave me strength. That is all I know.

01/01/2020

Happy New Year , I won't let my feeling ruin my day. I texted my brother telling them that I love them

Currently I am putting my thoughts in here, so bare with me :) . I'm processing my thoughts to be productive this day. Listening to calming sound gave me an array to focus. 

 

Uchi Shoppe : Home of your choice

 

In the midst of pandemic phenomena , it was accidentally bound to conceptualize  an online shop which is UCHI SHOPPE.

 Uchi Shoppe  tried to  start a side hustle where in we can showcase our spare time to support and promote small businesses especially the local craftsmen and artisan.

Since the word Uchi  is related to house and home , our products has something to do with home essentials , house decoration, customized furniture that elevates your  sense  of style  and convenience. We do offer  a gift ideas catalog where in you can order a unique pieces specially made to your love ones.

Let me site an excerpt from the internet that explain the core meaning of the word UCHI

 

Uchi, which translated from Japanese means “house”

“uchi”, also written as either “家”、or ”内” can mean two different things:

家 means house. When you say it as “uchi”, it’s usually when refer to “home” instead of the word “house. It can also be read as “ie”

内 is a type of personal pronoun, like “I”. It is mainly used by women or feminine sounding men, and is especially common in the kansai dialect. It can also (rarely) mean the exclusive form of “us”

https://www.quora.com/What-does-%E2%80%9Cuchi%E2%80%9D-mean-in-Japanese-What-are-some-pronunciation-tips 

Vision : I envision this side hustle to be one of our venture in the future where in we can cater local and foreign needs of customized furniture and talking pieces. I envision this to be a known for our quality products specially for interior needs , home essentials and Eco-friendly products.

Mission: To provide employment to the skilled and creative individuals and help them attain their maximum creative ability to create and discover products that will sustain to our community needs.

Please bare with us as we are in the stage of learning how to give you a quality product and services.

Below are some of the products and services that we are offered:

- Customized Interiors and Furnitures offers locally made home and office furniture for an affordable price. We also customize furniture according to your needs such as shelves, bookshelves, shelving, chairs, tables, and desks for home and office space.

Why I love weirdos ?

Have you ever watched a movie and get curious about a certain character?Regardless of the outer apperance are you the type of person  that will google the name of  the actor or actress portraying a certain role and  look for the character analysis and do the background check? If you have that tendencies , well I give you a high five.

When I encountered something strange character it excites me , it exudes my interest to read or go further details about it like villains that play mind games with their victims. 

Here are some actor/characters that leaves a spot in my head.

Eddie Redmayne

I first saw him in the movie of Theory of Everything: A grief history of love  as he portrayed Stephen Hawking . I got curious and look for his bio information. I don't know if it is in the array of interesting roles he portrayed but I found him a great actor with depth for his craft.

Robert Carlyle

I saw him as Rumplestiltskin and Mr. Gold in Once a upon a time series. I was facinated how he portrayed two different character.Mr. Gold resonates calm and neutral while Rumplestiltskin has a child -like quality to him and enjoys gleefully tricking people.His Style of acting are on the detail of the facial expressions , tune of voice and mannerism.

I realized that our likes and dislikes reflects our personality and how we appreciate a certain artistry and craft.I would say that a character would not be effective as they are if the one who portrayed doesn't have the passion on what they are doing.

When we are intrigue , we tend to dig deeper for what is beneath the surface .My curiosity naturally stirs what is behind the what my eyes could see. Mostly it touches my heart and soul. The air of mystery keeps me the obsession of questioning things and the anticipation to discover more.

God's Signs

 

When we feel like we are in the midst of uncertainty and stillness. 

When we feel a pinch of numbness to live and enjoy life.

Today is a bit strange feeling for me, I recently moved to a new place, something came up, I woke up early and I decided to went to the rooftop. I tend to relax my senses as my eyes roamed around for familiarity with the place while listening to the sweet chirp of birds on the nearby cable wires. 

I feel like time suddenly paused. Its a bit strange, as if I have a huge puzzle and trying to reconnect the places, faces, sound, and event patterns. Then I discover something. I feel like God is has something to say on me. I just feel his presence on that scenario, I can't even describe that feeling but it gives chills and comfort at the same time.

God won't leave you guessing. He will send signs that its time to slow down, quiet your mind, and work on yourself. It's up to you to read the signs that it's time to wait. Not all of God's sign is pleasing to us, some are unpleasant or painful. It's God's way of tapping your shoulder and get your attention. Pay attention to the events and patterns in your life.

Is God telling you to wait?

 

 

Here are some events that God is telling you to wait.

 

1.The feeling of being lost & purposeless.

2.Negative & hurtful people leaving your life.

3.An opportunity to go on a trip or retreat.

4.A breakup.

5. Physical or mental exhaustion.

Some events of our life leave a scar and give a mark that we are trying to hide in the real world. We kept on thinking that certain event of our life was already buried by time. But God has its way to dig it up and place it in front of you to say something indirectly.

These signs make us reflect to be a better person and to choose the right decision in the future. God has his way on protecting  us .

We just have to learn his way of saying that we need to wait. 

Trash to Treasures : Davao Barter Community

In the midst of this COVID19 pandemic our community found a way to help people who wants to barter things that can still be utilize by other people in exchange of things they better need of and extending help in communities against real life situations and restrictions.One man’s trash could be another man’s treasure indeed.The rise of barter community started through online group in facebook in which one of the policy is to exchange only with out money involved. It is a great way to declutter things and swap into our preffer goods or items , in that way those family who are curently lost a job due to COVID may trade their available posession to something that can generate an income or something that they can eat to survive daily life.

Imagine a world without cash or credit cards. You'd barter to get what you need and want.Barter/Trade system also implied by finding joy on small things of life rather than the value of money and luxury items.Giving and receiving is not always based on the value of items but the thought behind that act.In times of crisis people tend to stretch their budget and look for ways like bartering helps getting the essentials with the things they do not need anymore.

Sudden twisted (Covid-19 Quarantine Days)

Its me again writing while heavy rain is pouring outside. Ang tagal ko ding nawala dito sa space nato, at sobra ko namiss ang pagsusulat.Hindi ko maexplain ang feeling,but I sense the state of being resurrected.I feel blessed and so excited for future prompts of write ups kahit alam kong ako lng ang nakakabasa nagpinagsusulat ko.Nasa state ako na parang ang dami kong gustong simulan na project. Ang daming ideas pumapasok sa utak ko , mga bagay patungkol sa negosyo at pag manage ng pera. Alam ko naman na wala naman akong maraming pera pero parang napapansin ko na ang hilig ko manood ng money related topics sa youtube pati mga how to topics siguro kasi tumatanda na ako.

Lately I spend so much of my time pondering about things especially this COVID -19 phenomenon.During quarantine period I have so much time to rest and reflect. Do the things that I didn't tried before. I will share my quarantine days routine through the following snapshots.

I started to cook and prepare my meals since nearby restaurants are closed :). Before quarantine I barely prepare my own food and I guess I need to be consistent for doing this. Honestly I enjoyed it alot. Cooking is something that you need to put an effort from planning your meals, buying ingredients , slicing & peeling ,adjusting measurement of spices to your own taste and plating .I figure out that preparing meals is simply amazing , it satisfied my tummy and anticipated what will be my next menu for the next day.

I also indulge in watching K-drama.Watching K-drama series is one of my routine and it stretched my perceptions in different facets of life.

Here are some K drama series that lurked my emotions and stirred my soul.

Synopsis

(Itaewon Class) tells the story of ex-convict Park Sae-ro-yi (Park Seo-joon) whose life has been turned upside down after he gets expelled from school for punching a bully and his father is killed in an accident. Following his father's steps, he opens his bar-restaurant DanBam (Sweet Night) in Itaewon. Alongside his manager, Jo Yi-seo (Kim Da-mi) and his staff, he strives towards success and reaching greater heights while battling against a food conglomerate.

Synopsis

The series (Empress Ki)revolves around Gi Seungnyang, a Goryeo-born woman who ascends to power despite the restrictions of the era's class system, and later marries Toghon Temür (Emperor of Mongol Empire) to become an empress of the Yuan dynasty, instead of her first love, Wang Yu. It managed to highlight the deep love the Emperor embedded in Lady Ki and depicts her loves and political ambitions.[3]

This drama (Royal Gambler) is about a prince who's forced to live as a commoner and uses his gambling skills to take revenge on the King. Dae-Gil (Jang Geun-suk) and King Yeongjo (Yeo Jin-goo) enter a match. ... King Yeongjo is a man who never lowers his head without a convincing reason.

Jang Keun Suk has thousands of expressions in his repertoire. Each expression conveys the thoughts of the character he’s portraying .

I also started my own urban mini survival garden,since I have limited space I struggled in replanting from one container to the other container. It gives me excitement as I witnessed the growth of every plant. Here's some glimpse of mini garden.

I diluted myself in learning through online , since online resources is an inch away but too much information can be at times overwelhming. Maybe we can try some courses one at a time . I recommend online tesda training its free , take advantage the free opportunity to learn.

I also started to make pages for my side hustle and back up career . Please do visit my page and support .

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